Am i selfish??

My birthday is coming yet i dun really feel well, not only becos im sick but also becos i dunno how to split my time between my girlfren, my frens, my cousins and also my family members.. I tot of having a chalet where everyone could gather making things easier but tinking tat maybe there will be different gruops of ppls cos they all dun really know each other.. Being 18 is kinda impt to me XD but in any case i tot of spending time with my gf on my actual b'day itself.. But of cos i would really like to spend time with my frens and cousins as well since there is somethings i wanna do tat my gf will nv like =((

Am i selfish??

Spending more than i should...

Short of many things but still i like to shop for unnecessary things when i can actually save for other things. Sometimes its just that i dun feel happy, that's when i start to spend money and even keep myself busy with my games and friends which stil results in spending more money.. Sigh..

Stressed Out..

Another usual day in my ordinary life but like everyday i face problems.. Problems like MONEY $$!! Trying hard to allow everyone to not worry bout the money i lend them or bout those i borrowed from them.. But, the main thing is i am not holding anyone's money.. I'm sort of like the middle man.. Sian sia!!! It all started when i tried helping my cousin with something i shouldn't as a result of troubling 2 of my friends.. Really hope i can solve everything between me and my friends for my cousin and myself of cos within this coming week so that there won't be stress on our friendship because of money.. Sigh..