Saturday, 6 June 2009

Today is a really bad day in the sense that my nose have been bleeding the whole day. It may not be like "whole day" as in continuously but i bleed for like 3 times in some weird timings. First was when i was in school just before i went in class for test and its stopped just when i was walking into the class. Second was when i ended my test and when i was talking to my friends when i started to bleed AGAIN!!! Third and lastly was after my dinner with 3 of my other Magic friends. This time was the most jialat cause it was like flowing water which just would not stop no matter wad. Maybe its telling me something is very wrong with my life. My Dear haven been talking to me much since we sort of stay in a relationship which is closer than friends but not as a couple. Complicated isn't it?? I just hope she is happy no matter wad happens cause tmr is her B'Day. Yet, i can't spend time with her nor celebrate with her since she is at China. Demoralised, Shag, Helpless..

INTERNET!!!

Its been like foreva since i wrote something here since my internet has been down because of the stupid bill!!! WTF man.. Just started Year 2 not long ago and everything seem so boring to me in class.. There is like a new module which i totally dunno waht it is about but its downright boring.. Like to the MAX!!! But still i have the attend the class because attendance is so freaking impt in ITE.. I am missing my Dearest now when she is so far away in China and its been so long.. Longing for her return.. Wan to hug her, kiss her and many many things(SECRET) =DD
I LOVE YOU LAOPO!!! MUACKS!!!

End of Yr1 Holidays

2 days since my holiday started and here i am in lan early in the morning dunno doing wad.. Cant really slp last nite maybe slpt like 3 hrs nia.. Missing my Dear also.. She has left Singapore for wuite some time le.. My phone and internet tio cut sia!!! SUCK BIG TIME!!!! ZZZZ.. I LOVE YOU DEAR~!!!~~!!!

Life without HER.

Its been 3 days since my Dear left me to China for her school stuff.. Everything is still going well but i really miss my Dear.. I know she doing ok at China but still 4 months is rather long for me.. I am currently kinda free since i am on a half holiday(even though im also free without holidays).. Its all so bored and im asking around for lobangs for ppl around me.. =DD I wan to earn enough money to spend more time with my Dear when she is back frm China and i'll be waiting for her!! =DD I LOVE YOU DEAR!!! MUACKS!!! I'll try my best to update my blog everyday!!! Tats wad i promised my Dear and i'll really try to do it!!! RoAR!!!

Starting of holidays..

My holidays are nearing yet i dun feel really happy.. Becos my Dear is leaving Singapore to China for some school stuff for some fucking 4 and a half months!!! ITS LIKE WTF!!! I was hoping to be able to spend more time together with her during this holiday but now all things was lost and all hopes was dashed.. I was even asked not to send her off during the day she was leaving (my heart sank like no one's business).. Which i really hope i could.. I really really hope tat she'll allow me to send her off on tat day.. I noe she might be worried tat her parents will seperate us but i dun really feel right when we have been tgt for so long and yet they dun noe about it.. I jus hope tat they'll understand and allow us to be tgt..
I LOVE U DEAR..

Woots.. Its end of the week and its time to chill with my frens.. Went to PS and ZH's hs today to bai nian.. Collected 2 ang baos then headed dwn to holland village to chill.. We when into a cool looking shop.. Sat dwn on the FLOOR!!! No seats.. But its like kinda cool.. Ordered a hell load of things to munch on while we played Chua Dai Di aka Big 2.. We were like hungry ghost and gobbled up all the food we ordered in like less dan 10 mins.. =.= Oya, we also met up with Chu over there.. Then when we were done with our food, we started playing Bluff!!! It was like fucking hilarious when we when 1 whole round saying the same cards over and over again!! Then its like we had to called for bill b4 we miss the last bus home and the bill was like $72++.. OMFG!!! Hmm.. Despite all this fun i had, i really wan my Dear to noe tat she is irreplacable and tat i enjoy being with my fren as much as with her.. I love u Dear..

Pending..

Went out with my Dear today after so long. Went to catch a move today titled 'Love Matter' and it was rather ok i would say.. But wad really made me happy is that i could spend more time with her which is actually all i really need.. As i look back at the times we were always quarreling, i felt really great to be able to spend so much happy times with my Dear and jus stay tis way throughout the times we are tgt.. I dunno issit me but i find that i have nth much to tok to her about as there isnt anything much tat i do everyday or special things i could say about.. Sigh..

Chinese New Year!!!

CNY is here and now its gone again.. Dint actually go to many places to collect the most impt thing for tis festive time.. ANG BAO!!! WOOHHOOOOO!!! Visited 2 places to collect my red packets =DD Kinda easy since i'd get all the red packets i could get just by visting this 2 places.. HOWEVER... This year's harvest was kinda below my expectation.. Im referring to the $$.. My yearly target is actually $200 but tis year i got only $100++.. SIGH~~~ But its ok.. Even though my financial luck isn't tat good but my relationship luck is all getting better!!! Im getting so much closer to my beloved Dear and i find tat we are understanding each other more each day!!! I love u Dear and ty for being more and more bearing over me playing games..

It's all getting better..

Hmmm.. No longer quarreling with my Dear anymore and again we are back tgt again!!! ^^ Chinese New Year is coming yet i hardly feel much of the festive season this year.. Economy downturn is making everyone's life miserable.. I can feel the stress and burden on my dad yet i cant do anything to help him.. I was hoping maybe i could spend more time with my Dear also becos of her departure from Singapore to China for some study crap!!! DAMN!!!! Sigh~~~
Dear.. I Love U!!!!~~~~

Bad Start For This Year..

Its New Year Day today but it wasn't that much of a great day for me becos i was spending my time alone at home. I felt terrible and down not becos i wasn't with my friends nor was it becos my family wasn't with me but becos my Dear wasn't with me and at the same time we were quarreling. I teared on my own for a while be4 trying to go to slp but i could not. Something within me was keeping me awake, a feeling in my chest that was down and heavy. Its not only that as a bad start, but also becos i was trying to earn my own money by doing a business. I wanted and allowed my Mom to try the product for free to prove to her that is was workable but she rejected me only giving me an excuse that her skin was sensitive. I seriously think this is a terrible year for me.. And not long ago i just broke up with my Dear again.. I dunno how things will turn out this time but i come to realise that i can't really give my Dear what she really wan from me.. Maybe a short term pain is better than a long term pain.. I dunno if what i did was right but i really hope that she could be happy.. Maybe happier without me..