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Saturday, 6 June 2009

2009-06-06T00:43:00.002+08:00

Today is a really bad day in the sense that my nose have been bleeding the whole day. It may not be like "whole day" as in continuously but i bleed for like 3 times in some weird timings. First was when i was in school just before i went in class for test and its stopped just when i was walking into the class. Second was when i ended my test and when i was talking to my friends when i started to bleed AGAIN!!! Third and lastly was after my dinner with 3 of my other Magic friends. This time was the most jialat cause it was like flowing water which just would not stop no matter wad. Maybe its telling me something is very wrong with my life. My Dear haven been talking to me much since we sort of stay in a relationship which is closer than friends but not as a couple. Complicated isn't it?? I just hope she is happy no matter wad happens cause tmr is her B'Day. Yet, i can't spend time with her nor celebrate with her since she is at China. Demoralised, Shag, Helpless..

INTERNET!!!

2009-04-29T02:02:00.002+08:00

Its been like foreva since i wrote something here since my internet has been down because of the stupid bill!!! WTF man.. Just started Year 2 not long ago and everything seem so boring to me in class.. There is like a new module which i totally dunno waht it is about but its downright boring.. Like to the MAX!!! But still i have the attend the class because attendance is so freaking impt in ITE.. I am missing my Dearest now when she is so far away in China and its been so long.. Longing for her return.. Wan to hug her, kiss her and many many things(SECRET) =DD
I LOVE YOU LAOPO!!! MUACKS!!!

End of Yr1 Holidays

2009-03-11T12:20:00.002+08:00

2 days since my holiday started and here i am in lan early in the morning dunno doing wad.. Cant really slp last nite maybe slpt like 3 hrs nia.. Missing my Dear also.. She has left Singapore for wuite some time le.. My phone and internet tio cut sia!!! SUCK BIG TIME!!!! ZZZZ.. I LOVE YOU DEAR~!!!~~!!!

Life without HER.

2009-03-02T20:58:00.003+08:00

Its been 3 days since my Dear left me to China for her school stuff.. Everything is still going well but i really miss my Dear.. I know she doing ok at China but still 4 months is rather long for me.. I am currently kinda free since i am on a half holiday(even though im also free without holidays).. Its all so bored and im asking around for lobangs for ppl around me.. =DD I wan to earn enough money to spend more time with my Dear when she is back frm China and i'll be waiting for her!! =DD I LOVE YOU DEAR!!! MUACKS!!! I'll try my best to update my blog everyday!!! Tats wad i promised my Dear and i'll really try to do it!!! RoAR!!!

2009-02-25T05:20:00.007+08:00

Starting of holidays..

2009-02-25T05:20:00.006+08:00

My holidays are nearing yet i dun feel really happy.. Becos my Dear is leaving Singapore to China for some school stuff for some fucking 4 and a half months!!! ITS LIKE WTF!!! I was hoping to be able to spend more time together with her during this holiday but now all things was lost and all hopes was dashed.. I was even asked not to send her off during the day she was leaving (my heart sank like no one's business).. Which i really hope i could.. I really really hope tat she'll allow me to send her off on tat day.. I noe she might be worried tat her parents will seperate us but i dun really feel right when we have been tgt for so long and yet they dun noe about it.. I jus hope tat they'll understand and allow us to be tgt..
I LOVE U DEAR..

2009-02-07T04:25:00.002+08:00

Woots.. Its end of the week and its time to chill with my frens.. Went to PS and ZH's hs today to bai nian.. Collected 2 ang baos then headed dwn to holland village to chill.. We when into a cool looking shop.. Sat dwn on the FLOOR!!! No seats.. But its like kinda cool.. Ordered a hell load of things to munch on while we played Chua Dai Di aka Big 2.. We were like hungry ghost and gobbled up all the food we ordered in like less dan 10 mins.. =.= Oya, we also met up with Chu over there.. Then when we were done with our food, we started playing Bluff!!! It was like fucking hilarious when we when 1 whole round saying the same cards over and over again!! Then its like we had to called for bill b4 we miss the last bus home and the bill was like $72++.. OMFG!!! Hmm.. Despite all this fun i had, i really wan my Dear to noe tat she is irreplacable and tat i enjoy being with my fren as much as with her.. I love u Dear..

Pending..

2009-02-04T00:32:00.005+08:00

Went out with my Dear today after so long. Went to catch a move today titled 'Love Matter' and it was rather ok i would say.. But wad really made me happy is that i could spend more time with her which is actually all i really need.. As i look back at the times we were always quarreling, i felt really great to be able to spend so much happy times with my Dear and jus stay tis way throughout the times we are tgt.. I dunno issit me but i find that i have nth much to tok to her about as there isnt anything much tat i do everyday or special things i could say about.. Sigh..

Chinese New Year!!!

2009-01-29T00:16:00.002+08:00

CNY is here and now its gone again.. Dint actually go to many places to collect the most impt thing for tis festive time.. ANG BAO!!! WOOHHOOOOO!!! Visited 2 places to collect my red packets =DD Kinda easy since i'd get all the red packets i could get just by visting this 2 places.. HOWEVER... This year's harvest was kinda below my expectation.. Im referring to the $$.. My yearly target is actually $200 but tis year i got only $100++.. SIGH~~~ But its ok.. Even though my financial luck isn't tat good but my relationship luck is all getting better!!! Im getting so much closer to my beloved Dear and i find tat we are understanding each other more each day!!! I love u Dear and ty for being more and more bearing over me playing games..

It's all getting better..

2009-01-24T01:43:00.003+08:00

Hmmm.. No longer quarreling with my Dear anymore and again we are back tgt again!!! ^^ Chinese New Year is coming yet i hardly feel much of the festive season this year.. Economy downturn is making everyone's life miserable.. I can feel the stress and burden on my dad yet i cant do anything to help him.. I was hoping maybe i could spend more time with my Dear also becos of her departure from Singapore to China for some study crap!!! DAMN!!!! Sigh~~~
Dear.. I Love U!!!!~~~~

Bad Start For This Year..

2009-01-02T04:42:00.002+08:00

Its New Year Day today but it wasn't that much of a great day for me becos i was spending my time alone at home. I felt terrible and down not becos i wasn't with my friends nor was it becos my family wasn't with me but becos my Dear wasn't with me and at the same time we were quarreling. I teared on my own for a while be4 trying to go to slp but i could not. Something within me was keeping me awake, a feeling in my chest that was down and heavy. Its not only that as a bad start, but also becos i was trying to earn my own money by doing a business. I wanted and allowed my Mom to try the product for free to prove to her that is was workable but she rejected me only giving me an excuse that her skin was sensitive. I seriously think this is a terrible year for me.. And not long ago i just broke up with my Dear again.. I dunno how things will turn out this time but i come to realise that i can't really give my Dear what she really wan from me.. Maybe a short term pain is better than a long term pain.. I dunno if what i did was right but i really hope that she could be happy.. Maybe happier without me..

HOLIDAYS!!!

2008-12-13T04:08:00.003+08:00

Holidays are finally here but yet i dunno whether to be happy or not?? Weird having a holiday that starts out not being happy. Reasons for being happy is finally i can slack.. But at the same time i facing things like relationship problems and dunno whether to work or not.. Sigh.. Is this holiday really that good for me?? Since then i dunno what to do.. Maybe spending more times with my friends can remove all worries momentarily by making me distracted and not tink about those unhappy things.. But i also hope my Dear will believe me and have more faith in me.. Hais.. Sooooo sianzzzzzz sia...

MY B'DAE!!!

2008-12-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

Finally, my b'dae came and now its gone also.. Even though i dint really do anything much but i was really happy so be able to spend so much time with my cousins and even more happier when i could spend time with my Dear.. My Dear paid for everything on my b'dae making me feel very guilty and making me tink tat im actually not much of a gentleman(even though i noe im really not) but stil.. U know~~ XD HAHA!! I dint actually get alot of present but i did get somethings i really wanted.. Time.. Spending time with my dear and also my cousins.. Despite the fact tat i dint go out with my frens, i know they understood me so im actually gratful for tat.. =D TY EVERYONE!!!

Am i selfish??

2008-11-22T23:06:00.002+08:00

My birthday is coming yet i dun really feel well, not only becos im sick but also becos i dunno how to split my time between my girlfren, my frens, my cousins and also my family members.. I tot of having a chalet where everyone could gather making things easier but tinking tat maybe there will be different gruops of ppls cos they all dun really know each other.. Being 18 is kinda impt to me XD but in any case i tot of spending time with my gf on my actual b'day itself.. But of cos i would really like to spend time with my frens and cousins as well since there is somethings i wanna do tat my gf will nv like =((

Am i selfish??

2008-11-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

Spending more than i should...

2008-11-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

Short of many things but still i like to shop for unnecessary things when i can actually save for other things. Sometimes its just that i dun feel happy, that's when i start to spend money and even keep myself busy with my games and friends which stil results in spending more money.. Sigh..

Stressed Out..

2008-11-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

Another usual day in my ordinary life but like everyday i face problems.. Problems like MONEY $$!! Trying hard to allow everyone to not worry bout the money i lend them or bout those i borrowed from them.. But, the main thing is i am not holding anyone's money.. I'm sort of like the middle man.. Sian sia!!! It all started when i tried helping my cousin with something i shouldn't as a result of troubling 2 of my friends.. Really hope i can solve everything between me and my friends for my cousin and myself of cos within this coming week so that there won't be stress on our friendship because of money.. Sigh..

Lost without U..

2008-10-31T05:09:00.001+08:00

It has been some time since we parted and i miss her alot.. I really hope tat she is happy without me in her life to bother her and upset her.. But i must say i feel really lost without her.. I can hardly feel any happiness nor sadness in my life anymore.. Nth matters anymore actually.. I haven been to school for the whole week.. Not really feeling anything rite now but i really hope we could somehow talk..

Yup.. Now my mind is blank again..

TON!!!

2008-10-27T01:42:00.003+08:00

Ooo.. I am bored now.. So i decided to write about what i did on Saturday which actually isn't anything much since.. So my usual routine of going to Bishan in the afternoon.. And my purpose... Is to play Magic cards(A kind of trading card game and not some fortune telling shit ok!!!) =)) So after like spending half a day there and done playing my cards i decided to go back.. Actually not home but instead to KFC to eat lo.. The main thing is its free since i got like 12 of that Singtel top-up cards sooo yup... After that i went to meet my friend who i was spending my nite with... Whahaha!!! Ok ok.. Nth really exciting since he's a guy and we are gonna ton at Cyrus, a lan shop... And we spend the nite dere playing some shit games and laughing away non stop!!!

Its Over..

2008-10-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

I jus broke up with my dear today. Dunno why we even quarreled? But the thing is it all started as we exited the movie theatre after our movie. As we are exiting i failed to hold on to the door at the exit resulting my dear to be hurt on her finger. I tried apologising but to no avail. Suddenly, a gush of anger jus came onto me and i started to walk off to the restroom. When i came out of the restroom she was missing, and i tried to contact her but after calling twice she offed her phone. The anger within me allowed me to walk off and out of the shopping centre without even looking for her.
Not long after she called back, i asked where she was and she said she was on her way home and i too also made my way home on my own.
It was after i cooldowned that i started thinking wad had gone wrong and wad i could do but i knew somethings were jus too late. It may be jus me but i am actually feeling rather lousy and i tried to wait for her at the bus stop at her house but..
I really hope everything will jus turn back in time or even jus let me have a turning point but it may be jus too late..
Anger is the cause of my pain!!!
I'm Sorry dear.. I really am..
I love u!!

My painful morning.

2008-10-14T22:13:00.004+08:00

It was time to sleep after my DOTA session, tats when i felt a immense pain in my tummy!!! ARGH!!! It really hurt like crap man!!! Like to the max... Anyway, i when to toilet to clear my bowel but even after tat my tummy still hurt so bad tat i could'n sleep properly and actually i dint sleep much the whole freaking night... I tink i slept for bout 2 and half hours before waking up to the !@#$%^&*() pain again.. I visited the toilet again but it dint really help tat much And it was like 5 plus 6 in the freaking morning.. I felt so weak and i dint noe wad to do so i jus drank water and started walking about in the house not knowing wad to do.. So i decided to sit down and watch tv for awhile and at the same time rest.. Tats when my dad came home from work and asked,

DAD: Wah!! Y u wake up so early??!!
Then i was like..
Me: I dint slp much. I can't sleep. (restless)
Then my dad was like nagging non stop before i could even explain anything to him bout my tummyache.. ZZZ!!!
After awhile, i felt much better but, it was time for school.. But i was like freaking tired so i dint actually go school today.. =(( Felt bad since its only the second day of school and i pon liao.. XD

Start of my 2nd Sem.

2008-10-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

After bout 1 Month of holiday, i'm finnaly back in school!!! Actually waking up early kinda turn me off man!! ARGH!!!! Anyway, i got to see my friends and we got to talk a hell lot bout our boring holiday. =.=!!! HAHA!!! Oya, i went to school today to check my freaking GPA score and i realise tat i only got 1.5 points overall(Man tat sucks big time). However, i find tat my score is considered average in my class to my relief sia.. Oya!!! I'm having a class outing on friday to go bowling!!! Exciting huh?? But the location totally turned me off cos its at Bukit Batok which is rather near to many ppl in my class other dan a few(including me). Tats sooooo demoralising.. SIGH~~~

Climate Changing

2008-10-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

As usual, i woke up today in the middle of the day when many people are actually at their most active time. I lazed on my bed for 5 minutes before reaching for my towel for my morning bath.
And again as usual, my daily routine of looking through the newspaper and watching tv at the same time where my bad habit of changing channel continously start. I was then caught up at the channel HBO. What i saw was a man named Al-Gore(I tink) giving speeches around the world about global warming and climate changes. As i start watching the show and listening to what this man had to say i did not know tat i actually sat on the chair for more than 2 hrs jus watching what tis man had to say making me tink about our near future of climate changes. Opps... I dunno what more to say anymore!!! XD
Oya.. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO VISIT THIS WEBSITE: www.changingclimate.com =))

The Start

2008-10-09T04:10:00.001+08:00

WOOHOOOO!!!
THIS IS THE START OF MY BLOG OF MY ENTIRE FREAKING LIFE!!!
FEELS KINDA WEIRD BUT ITS COOL.. =P WHAHAHA!!!